WHY I WANT TO WAKE UP IN 2016!
Late to the party!
As per usual, I am slightly late to the party but better late than never! When submitting my plea to Psychologies in December about why I want to Wake up in 2016 I never really considered that I would bag a slot. Writing down my hopes to Wake up was easy and as I pressed send I felt like I had posted an overdue letter to an honest friend. But by chance I did bag a slot! And with it came my first wake up call of 2016. My old friend had written back and given me the push I needed to act out my good intentions.
Im a 28 year old female living and working in Glasgow. I have a hilarious boyfriend who just so happens to be a great cook and by chance I live unreasonably close to my sister, brother in law and adorable little niece. Like most things in my life my job is inconsistent. I work freelance as a costume assistant for television and on paper life writes to be pretty cushy. But like my job I find myself often on edge. ‘I cant get no satisfaction’ is a regular hit in my jukebox brain and I often feel zombified on a daily basis. Chronically indecisive and eager to please others I have never fully taken control of my own reins and a while back began to ask myself what I really wanted from life. Each day my head remained in the clouds and each night I’d go to bed hoping that the morning would bring fresh ideas, enthusiasm and if I was really lucky, an epiphany! This tendency to mull over the past and dream about the future made my present pretty non existent. The epiphany never came and I still don’t know what I want to do with my life but rather than let this consume me for yet another year I want to wake up to the present. My search for what I want to do with my life may continue but with it I want to take who I am, be grateful of what I have and connect with those I love, take risks and live for the moment. In the film ‘p.s I love you’ Hollie is wondering when her life will truly begin only to be bluntly reminded that it has indeed already began, she is in it now!
So challenge accepted with both excitement and a touch of anxiety! The first one looks like a toughie but then again Nothing any good isn’t hard.