Sometimes you can't put it right
In Week 39 of The Great Wake Up our challenge was to imagine going back to a mistake in our past, and sorting it out.
I have been putting off this challenge...
As soon as I read it, the mistakes came flooding back, wrenching my heart all over again. Although they're not things that would register with some people, over the course of my life there have been a few instances when, through ignorance or error (never, never with intent) I have inadvertently harmed an animal. Like a squirrel who ran out in front of my car and I couldn't avoid him. And the problem is, I can't put it right...
I hesitated to share this, because it probably sounds weird to some people that I even remember, and offends others that it's the times I mistakenly harmed an animal that stand out and pain me, rather than mistakes I may have made with people (which live quietly in my past and don't even come to mind when I search for them). So I found myself wondering why that may be.
The answer, I decided, is when I've harmed an animal I can't put it right. When you hurt a person, you can apologise, which is something I've always tried to do. You can't explain or apologise to an animal - they (or their families) don't understand. There is no atonement and no forgiveness.
I guess this kind of makes the point of the experiment around the power of being able to put things right.