I went through a real rollercoaster ride. I had so many insights, slaps in my face that it took me time to regain my balance.
But I am there, standing by myself, relieved to have set up empowering boundaries to balance things out. It is often when you do not expect it that the truth comes at your door to make you change. Like an old friend that you keep with you but glad to put in a corner when you don't want to face it. This time, I couldn't avoid the truth, I have to deal with that. It has been violent, intense and cathartic. I welcome with relief the ability to cry to let go of my disappointment, my anger, my sadness to see one of my beliefs being crushed on the floor.
It is with tears in my eyes that I faced the truth and decided to learn from it. I learned it the hard way but I will never ask the help from anyone close to me again. It is often in these moments that you realize that you are on your own, love is a beautiful feeling but doesn't give the power to someone else to save you, be happy on your own is essential for the core of your uniqueness. It is powerful, it's taking back your power, this time for GOOD.
Not only my perception of things dramatically shifted but my beliefs took a turn that I didn't expect. Trust is something really dear to me. Follow your intuition before giving your trust, it will never let you down to guide you to the good person. It is a fantastic compass to guide you to a tribe of like-minded people who will support you, cheer you up and love you no matter what.
Truth hurts. Forgive but never forget the learning.
With love and strength