Learning To Own My Story
My search for meaningful connection
The conversations I have via text or messaging apps tend to go a little like this:
‘Sorry, running 10mins late’
‘You free tomorrow?’
*Can be replaced by other acronyms.
I normally use this form of communication for very specific purposes – to make arrangements or to quickly check-in with someone. It’s a great way to contact someone when you can’t have a full conversation with them.
But occasionally a message comes through that is different to those I usually send and receive. A message that I don’t dismiss as soon as it’s been read. One that stays with me long after I’ve opened it.
I experienced this a week ago when I received an unexpected message from someone close to me who knew my story. The words were simple enough but had a deep impact on me.
The message was: Always proud of you! You are walking your own beautiful path.
It was the second part of the message that I instantly felt a connection to.
In that moment I noticed a shift inside me. I went from being somewhat downbeat and negative, to feeling empowered and excited. I began to realise that I haven’t failed because I’m different and that my path is just as valid as other people’s.
I felt a new sense of control, that it was okay to do things in my own unique way.
I’m not odd or strange. Well, not completely anyway! LOL!! (See what I did there?!).
I can be brave about doing my own thing. It may not be what I’d originally planned for myself but now that I’m here I want to make the most of it.
It’s not easy, but when you hear the words that I did it helps enormously. I realised that people do understand and there are those who are willing to look deeper. In turn that has helped me look deeper too.
I saw that the moments when I feel truly connected with myself are available and within reach. It took a single moment to help me appreciate that but it’s a moment that I’ll hold on to.
I took a risk, I opened up and reached out and received something priceless in return.
And I want to thank that person for taking a moment to type those words and for giving me that gift. You have helped me more than you know.