Week 19:Take a break

So this week we had the opportunity to think about the tasks we have taken part in and consider the impact if any, it has had on us.To be honest, nearing 40 I have begun to think more about what I like/ dislike, what I am comfortable with and responding more to how I feel.I spent so many of my younger days worrying about if people liked me, if I was doing the right thing at all times and always trying to make myself better; because I thought I was never good enough.At 39 I have finally come to realise: I am enough; warts and all.

This social experiment has helped me to realise I am comfortable with myself.I don’t like not drinking coffee.I know this now.I love writing poetry.This has been reaffirmed for me.I am blessed in so many ways.I am perfectly happy in my imperfect world.

Have the tasks been fun?Some of them.Have the tasks been easy? No.But I have realised that if I can continue to do this blog with the job I have (time- consuming) then it must be having an impact.I must be getting something positive out of it.

So I will continue on this journey of snapping out of auto pilot and awakening hidden depths.I take a long sigh as I have just read what my next challenge is going to be.Oh my goodness…….