Enjoy the downtime

Week twenty six in'wake up'

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Jun 21, 2016
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This week’s challenge was to use our downtime to connect with the world around us, to stop, take in a deep breath, to put a smile on our face and to connect with what’s going on around us.

Once again a smile appeared on my face because I knew this was another tool in the ‘wake up’ bag that I should be doing on a daily basis but don’t find time to do so because my downtime management is poor. There you go I’ve held my hand up. I know this is true.

Throughout the ‘wake up’ journey there have been many times I’ve thought, “Yes, I knew that.” And yet I don’t do it. For me this is like knowing I should take some asthma preventive inhaler before going to bed and telling myself, “It’ll be alright. “ Then waking up the next day with a tight chest and wondering why I didn’t take the drug. Yes folks I am a stupid man and I need to learn quicker and be more on the ball. I know what’s good for me and yet some devil inside plays mind games with me.

INSIDE MY HEAD

MARK: I must do…

DEVIL INSIDE: Eh, look at that Mark, look at this too.

MARK: I should go for a pleasant walk in amongst some greenery…

DEVIL INSIDE: Mark, you’re tired let some time slip by. Sit down you deserve it. Have a rest, listen to some music.

MARK: I know I love listening to music but I feel I should go for a nice walk and ‘feel’ what’s around me, get some connection…

DEVIL INSIDE: Mark, you’re starting to sound like a hippy. You’ve worked hard, put some Weller on. You know you love listening to Weller, he takes you to places.

MARK: I suppose I can go for a walk later or something. Maybe I can look out of the window later and find some connection then.

DEVIL INSIDE: (a crafty smile appears on his face, grinning teeth and the muffled sound of sly laughter in a whisper) What CD shall we put on? Shall we make a cup of tea? That would be nice wouldn’t it?


I knew this all to be true. I also knew this week this nasty habit of mine would stop because ‘wake up’ was bringing it into focus as an experiment – well done ‘wake up’ I was starting to dose off there for a minute.

So what where my conclusions after four days, you may ask? We need to enjoy our downtime and find time to connect with what’s around us because you do feel energised and more connected to other people and the planet. When you stop and wait in the still, and watch what is around you and open up to it you are more connected and you are leading a fuller life. This is something I need to do and must find the time to do it. I need to work on this big time, because deep inside there’s a good (great) person trying to get out and lead the fullest life he can and from that others will benefit too.

MARK: Eh Devil where are you? I’ve got something to tell you.

CUT TO TREES BLOWING IN THE WIND. CUT TO SAND BLOWING ITS WAY ACROSS AN OPEN DESERT. CUT TO THE STILLNESS OF THE OCEAN. CUT TO THE BREAKING OF DAWN IN AN EMPTY CITY. CUT TO THE STILLNESS OF AN ENGLISH VILLAGE AS DUSK FALLS. CUT TO THE PEAK OF A BRITISH MOUNTAIN AS THE SUN SETS. CUT TO A PAGE FROM A DIRTY NEWSPAPER SLOWLY BLOWING ALONG AN EMPTY STREET.

MARK: Devil, where are you?

CUT TO BLACK AND THE SOUND OF THE BREEZE AT THE START OF A STORM.

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Someone who learned to wake up

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Vanessa over 2 years ago

Oh, how well I know that devil... Just check your phone, just one more chapter, just, just, just... Great blog!

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Mark Cuddy over 2 years ago

Vanessa, he is a swine who drains away the day but he's miles behind Mr Self-Doubt! This swine has squatted in my mind for far to long and even though there are times he goes on holiday and I change the locks of my mind he somehow breaks in again! In my most positive moments of 'wake up' he hasn't been able to gain access to within at all. But every now and then he'll break a window or try to force the lock and before I know it I'm self doubting again. I must find the lock to keep him out for good this year, 'wake up' is certainly helping as are your kind words. Take care, I have simple veggie enchiladas to make for our tea but can guarantee Mr Self-Doubt will be questioning how many mixed peppers and courgette I'm piling into the recipe. All the best Mark.

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Ffi Ffi Trixibelle over 2 years ago

Great blog it made me go ah -ha, yep, that's me too. You have no need for self doubt as you are just great as you are x

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Mark Cuddy over 2 years ago

Cheers Fi, believe it or not your lovely comment caught me at a moment when I just needed it. I was downloading some old photo's on to my laptop and came across one of my old dog Bruce who died a couple of years ago, the photo was taken in the last months of his little life. He was a rescued mongrel and lived to almost 16 years. When I saw a photo of him I had to hold back the waterworks (it was tough). But your kind words broke the moment and inspired me to put on The Rutles CD on to pick me up further. Thank you very much. Life is for living and the time for reflection isn't 'now'. Take care I'm off to listen to the fang-tastic Rutles; Dirk, Nasty, Stig and Barry - legends in their own lunch hour!

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Vanessa over 2 years ago

Mark, Fi is so right, you don't need to doubt yourself. You're our fearless Wake Up trailblazer - brave enough to put yourself out there first week after week and inspire people with your Wake Up adventures. Anyone who can climb a tree is a hero in my book! (And big hugs for Bruce - I know how it just takes a word or a picture to be floundering in loss again. Enjoy the Rutles, but don't be afraid to cry for Bruce - and yourself - as well.)

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Mark Cuddy over 2 years ago

Vanessa, you are so very kind.

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Chris Baréz-Brown over 2 years ago

Wow, great post. Super inspiring. Glad you told that devil you are embracing your inner hippie. Nice one Mark, C x