HALF WAY THERE!
Where does the time go she says
Reflecting on ‘The Great Wake Up’ Journey So Far………
The 1st of each month ludicrously comes as a genuine surprise to me. I find myself spouting common banalities of disbelief that its a new month, accusing time of creeping in and out so silently and left wondering where it went to so fast. The Half way in email from Psychologies came with this same stark reminder that time has past and we are half way into the year.
Im not entirely sure why my minds automatic response is to resist a new calendar month but can only assume its because Im programmed to worry. What did I miss out on? what did I not do? Time is running out! I don't feel any different! Of course Im being melodramatic in my expressions and can assure you my anxiety is swiftly forgotten. What I was most annoyed about this month however was that I am lagging behind in my Great Wake Up experiments! Thankfully Vanessa from ‘Psychologies’ reminded me of the insignificance of such a bother and the benefit of not getting bogged down with the tasks or considering them another triviality on your to do list. Rather the experiments are a moment to take to yourself, an excuse to shake things up a little, a welcoming fight against your humdrum conditioned routines and an invitation to push the boundaries of life.
Some of the tasks that have worked best for me are the ones that came with a followed sense of achievement, a finished piece , something tangible. Cooking, Writing and planting all involved an action or activity and all flourish when they make use of the same ‘made with love’ mantra. More difficult was setting aside time to myself to write up the results, a mixture of floundering bad time management and crippling perfectionism. If I wasn't to finish a task I simply could not write about it, considering it to be a fail! Perhaps these failings would make the more interesting stories and discoveries. I have had many WOW moments throughout but the greatest thing to have come out of The Great Wake Up has been the connections I have had with Friends, colleagues and even strangers, all of who surprised me with their humbling interest in The Great Wake Ups experiment and even sometimes what I have to say about it. There is something very powerful in having support and interest from those who you just didn't expect to. People are full of surprises, and never one dimensional. We are all searching for the most enjoyment, stimulation and happiness that we can find and thankfully there is never an end to whats available.
The Great Wake Up has acted as a little welcomed devil on my shoulder catching me just as Im about to give in, give up or go home. It stops me when Im being too serious, encourages me not to procrastinate and welcomes a playfulness that is always itching to come out. It has also provided me with a platform to start writing, to interact with like minded strangers and to wear my heart truly on my sleeve. So a huge Thank you to Chris and the team for welcoming me into The Great Wake Up challenge, adopting me as your human guinea pig, and slowly asking my eyes, mind and heart to Wake Up this year. So bring on the 1st of July - this time I aim to be ready!