Halfway in

Week 24 in the Great Wake Up

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This week Chris was asking us to reflect on the experiments so far, which experiments have worked best for us individually and if there were any patterns emerging.

I find this task easy because I think about it all the time. Since starting this journey I’ve learned so much about myself which either means I was living on autopilot for far too long or the change through the challenges has given me a clearer focus on perspective on where I want to be and what I need for a fuller life. In one way or another all the challenges have had a positive effect on me and helped me to grow as a person. Throughout life we grow as a person, spiritually and then we seem to come to an impasse. We stop and to move on we need inspiration or a shove from someone or something. ‘Wake Up’ has given that to me. With the tools I’ve picked up along the way I know there is still a long way to go before I feel fully awake but I’m further down the road and less sleepy than I was six months ago. The journey’s been fairly smooth. I feel I’ve grown. For the larger part of the week I feel more positive in what I do and where I’m going, with the odd exception when the dark clouds gather (thinking about the stress I endured moving into an apartment here. Strange to think I’m typing this next to the window in our apartment and feeling so mellow without any substance that triggered this feeling). On the whole the positivity is a wonderful pattern that I’ve noticed.

Bizarrely climbing a tree unleashes me spiritually. When I do this the connection I have with nature is unbelievable. My connection with nature and every day beauty has enhanced through ‘wake up’. I have a special relationship with the birds in the trees now. It’s like some of the challenges reignite something dormant.

There have been so many positives I can only feel grateful that my wife Sarah asked me to apply for the Great Wake Up in the first place and I was chosen to participate in such a direct way. The journey has been exciting, fun and rewarding. My overriding belief is the challenges have reawakened some forgotten or hidden knowledge in me. It’s wild at times but the moment I contain it the greater the rewards will be because it needs to be controlled and understood to use it as a tool every day when needed. Or does it? It’s easy how we forget the basics and the things that will get us through ‘those moments’ that are the most challenging. I forgot how liberating it was to climb a tree or tell someone what I loved about them, to notice how ‘stuff’ was suffocating me or being kinder and the rewards you get from that. So many lessons relearned.

I still genuinely love reading the other blogs. Some of the ‘wake up’ family have become friends and great pen pals. What else can you call them but ‘friends’ when they let you into their world and share their emotions with you and you share your deeper thoughts too? Some of the family haven’t communicated for a while and I really miss Vicki and Dee’s musings. I’d love to hear from them again. If they are reading this I’d love you to get back in touch. When some of us met at the meet up in January there was a great buzz of excitement and energy between us – I haven’t forgotten that. If you can please get in touch, you’re both missed and still a huge part of the ‘wake up’ family.

So, onward and upward we/I go with more fun and enlightenment to follow, I’m sure. I’m just very grateful for my wife and the Great Wake Up experiment because this year the chains that bind my spirit and the mental shackles are feeling looser all the time. Halfway in I’m closer to where I want to be.


Mark Cuddy

Someone who learned to wake up


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Chris Baréz-Brown over 4 years ago

Loving your words as ever. Also miss some of the Wake Up family. Would be good to hear how they are doing and if they are still playing. Also enjoy your perspective of how the stress can just disappear when we are in a good place and we wonder where it comes from. Have you read Clarity - by Jamie Smart? Its a good read for that. Maybe good stimulus. Keep shining bright!

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Mark Cuddy over 4 years ago

Cheers Chris I'll try and get that book. Of course it will have to be from the library because I don't buy 'stuff' anymore. It's a shame really because there is a bookshop in Liverpool I always visit and always buy something from and I'm up there this Wednesday for a few hours and I know I'll have to give it a swerve for once.
The Walker Art Gallery, a few pints in some great pubs with my parents (my mum doesn't drink so my dad makes up for it, ahem), my brother and a great mate of mine followed by a Chinese meal (vegetarian of course) and the train back to Brum then Malvern before sundown will have to do. But I will defo get on to the library about the book. Thanks for that.

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Ffi Ffi Trixibelle over 4 years ago

From someone who hasn't always been so positive I so agree with the overall conclusion of the first 6 months - here's to the next 6. I for one can't wait and also love reading how the others get on and miss their input also - well said.

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Mark Cuddy over 4 years ago


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Jacqui over 4 years ago

What a lovely post. So pleased you are feeling so positive!

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Mark Cuddy over 4 years ago


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Vanessa over 4 years ago

Mark, you've hit the nail on the head about how infectious joy can be when we let it in - funny you found yours up a tree :-) And I totally agree with you about the Wake-Up family - it's such an important part of my life that I feel little sad we're half-way through...

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Mark Cuddy over 4 years ago

Yeah-yeah again.