Week 17- Time for you
How do you manage to find five minutes for yourself everyday??
Five minutes to be.
Can I just have five minutes to be or not
Five minutes to dream.
I want that time to hear my voice, to feel, to learn
To not have to direct or demand, to be comfortable
For five minutes I don’t want to be your everything; I don’t want to have to bend or sway. To praise or advise.
Just five minutes to be me.
I don’t want to solve your problems, to forget myself, to look the way you want me to, to meet your needs, to forget my own.
For just five minutes I will be who I am, be still, be real, be everything I want to be in that moment and not spend a minute wasted.Not spend a minute feeling different or wrong.Not worry or care if I fit in.
For just five minutes I will be.
Week 17’s task was to spend five minutes every day having a break from our busy, hectic days.Just taking a few minutes to check out of the mad rush and the constant hum.I thought of many opportunities I would have throughout the day to have that mini- break.I even attempted to diarise that time.And then life happened.
I realised that to be able to put yourself first you have to be aggressively proactive to make it happen.It so easily does not happen.It’s too easy to get caught up in the never ending to do list; nevermind the constant interruptions you had not been prepared for.I very much have an open door policy at work and whilst it means I am aware of things very early on and have built a relationship with my team, it also means that there is always someone at my door wanting advice, sharing funny stories or 'dropping in'.
So I decided that I would be relentless in looking for that time to have five minutes in the day to “check out and check in”.To check out of the frantic pace at which we believe we need to operate and check in to myself.Nice to meet you Mrs Bee.Even for five minutes.I began to snatch five minutes wherever I found it (it’s worth noting I didn’t find two minutes on the first day).I wasn’t sure if I didn’t have the time or I forgot to find the time.I forgot about me.We often forget about ourselves, or we don’t understand exactly what it is we need to ensure we have a balanced life.
In order to improve my chances of finding the five minutes I thought it would be a good idea to choose something to do in that time that helps me to de- stress and “check out” so I thought I’d write some poetry for five minutes every day.It was a joy.I no longer forgot but would eagerly await a time in the day to write a few lines.It was a creative break in the day and benefitted me greatly.It also benefitted my team at work.It ensured that after I had that break I returned to work with a little more enthusiasm and clarity.Having that time allowed me to be clearer about my actions the rest of the day.
My one set back was every evening I told myself I would do the same at home but with a 15 year old, an eight year old and a seven- month old baby it just didn’t happen.But that’s ok.I eagerly await the next five minutes. The list of things I could try and do in that time are endless.Next week I am going to try five minutes of meditation. I may continue with my poetry.....