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Week 11-This week’s challenge was to wake up an hour earlier and do something you’ve always wanted to do.

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Mar 11, 2016
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I gave this some thought and initially I considered the word ‘crafting’ that is so fashionable these days and in particular for me sewing. My Mam used to run a fabric shop where I worked most weekends and school holidays, where she taught me how to cut a pattern, pin it, stitch it and deal with a sewing machine with a multi personality disorder. Well I say sew, it was more constructing garments to wear on my nights out which would usually fall apart before the clock struck 12. In my mind’s eye I could visualise myself buying some lovely retro fabric and make myself a dress in this extra hour. Alas, this needs some planning and well back in the real world it just didn’t happen this week but I will aspire to this perhaps when I have a few days off. The seed is well and truly planted now.

So for me I kept it simple this week. Ever since week two of the challenge I have continued my early morning ritual of going outside, I noticed immediately the benefit of this. It was a great start to the day where I could reflect upon what had gone before and contemplate the day ahead. I have had issues with depression for most of my adult life although I hadn’t recognised that the way I was feeling was actually a ‘something’ with an official title. I've been hiding it like a dirty secret because I feel ashamed to be feeling this way. It’s only in the past five years perhaps I have recognised this for what it actually is and it took a very kind therapist to spell this out to me. I have taken medication and felt better for it but I am trying to go cold turkey now because I don’t like the side effects. Some days I still have a ‘bad day’ and find it difficult to face people but once I am in the swing of things I can generally get through the day. Outside, walking, fresh air whatever it is really works for me. It lifts my spirits. The only problem is with the other commitments I have where do you fit it in? So… back to week two. Bingo- it suddenly clicked- get out of bed a bit earlier and go outside get your fix for the day and reap the benefits. It was without doubt something that I would continue to do. However, about six weeks ago, if you have read my other posts you will know that I sprained my ankle really quite badly; so much so, moving from the kitchen to the living room was a bit of a problem. I can’t tell you how much I missed that morning outside time- after a few weeks I could feel myself once again on that precipice looking downwards into the black fog. But there is a lovely Welsh saying ‘ Daw eto haul ar ben y bryn’ – it literally means ‘ the sun will shine on the mountain once again’ I guess it actually means in time everything will come to pass and just in time for me and this week’s challenge, my injury is getting better and each day this week I have been able to walk my dog Ted for half an hour before work and with Spring in the air it is much lighter than it has been in the morning so I can go that bit earlier. So I don’t know if this can be classed as ‘indulging my passion’, but it sure does mean I am looking after myself the best I can. I now wake up at 5.30am – I have some tea, read a bit just to get into the day slowly and then I go outside, rain or shine. Thank you ‘Great Wake Up’, for showing me the way. I think this is one I’ll be keeping.

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Ffi Ffi Trixibelle

I'm a single parent of ONE lovely lanky teenager.. I live in deepest rural Wales . My 'proper' job is in marketing and events but I am also a trained reflexologist, masseur and reiki giver (go figure!) I also look after my Mum who is in her late 80's, my dog Ted, my cat Black and my hens and goldfish...my dream is to have a small holding and offer people holidays in my teepee and maybe the odd therapy ....so as you can see I am a mass of contradictions.... I like to walk, do yoga, eat salad and visit new places but I also like to drive fast, Feast ice lollies, vodka on Friday's with friends(, which leads to dancing in my kitchen) my coffee , and staying up late... I can be outgoing but also extremely shy so like the rest of you I am still trying to figure it out one day at a time...

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Jacqui over 2 years ago

Oh Fi this is definitely a passion! I can completely understand this need for air and nature and the nature you have in Wales is surely meant to be treasured!

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Chris Baréz-Brown over 2 years ago

Nature is such a great source of food for the soul. Love your Welsh quote about slowing down and waiting for things to pass. Thanks Fi, Chris xx