The challenge this week was to capture our morning thoughts on paper each day. It's official - I'm tired of thinking!
Thought I'd share a bit of what poured out of my brain this week - randomised to protect the innocent :-)
Just, much, maybe, need, want, something - there are a lot of qualifiers in there around the think and the good and the know. And that's what came to me after this exercise of examining my thoughts. I just don't know. I don't know what I want to do with myself. I don't know what will make me happy.
To be clear, I mean this in the big-picture, long-term sense. I know very well what makes me happy in the moment. A long walk outside followed by a cup of tea or a bowl of home made soup is a real winner. Losing myself in a chewy problem puts me right into flow. And there's always seeing something new in bloom... (Incidentally, the magnolias are starting to flower where I live - gorgeous, but two months early... Bit of sadness mixed in with that one, because they usually bloom on my birthday, which I look forward to every year as they're my favourite!)
So what came out of this exercise for me is that I need to stop burdening myself with reflection, because it appears that pondering is not the way I'm going to solve the answer to life, the universe and everything. The burden of figuring out my purpose in life is getting heavy. So my plan is to stop thinking (about tomorrow) and start doing (all the little things that make me happy today). At least for a little while.