Weeks 6 & 7
Playing Catch up on the previous weeks!
So week 6 was to only buy food and water (within reason) and week 7 was to tune into your rhythm/body clock and do things when I choose to do them. I did both these experiments in the same week because I tried to do week 6 the week previous but I failed miserably as it was my sister's birthday and it was all about celebrations and treats!
To be honest both these weeks weren't new revelations for me. Money is tight at the moment (single mother living in London and all that malarkey) so I generally only buy necessities and so this is why this isn't new. I did on this particular week buy paracetmol (necessity for my head) and tulips (necessity for my emotional wellbeing) for myself! I remember I was trying to cut back a few months ago when the purse was a bit more full and so I would only try and just spend on my commute to work and I felt amazing by the end of the week! I had saved so much money and I felt in control and knowing that I could spend but chose not to was a good feeling of control. At the moment I can't spend recklessly so I don't feel in control because I feel it is out of my hands. Feeling guilty about buying tulips is not fun. At all.
I live by myself with a 10 year old. I am lucky because I can pretty much do what I please! I go to bed when I want (I set myself a bed time!), I eat what I want and I watch what I want. I get up around 6am and for that week I did a daring thing - I switched off my alarm clock (to be fair I was working from home and my child is an early bird - no chance of sleeping in). I actually woke up a minute or two before 6am. Because I was working from home, I had a bit more flexibility to my day. I went for walks, did work at different times of the day and picked my child up from school (rather than after school club). It amazed me how controlled we generally are by a working day. If I had to get the tube for work that week then I would be rushing and stressed to make sure we left the house on time. When I'm at work, a lunch break is frowned upon or maybe not even allowed! I rarely step outside for the 8 hours I am at work and I eat at my desk. That's not normal. But I know this. This is why I have handed in my notice and want more control over my working day.
Both these experiments is about freedom I think. How much freedom do we give ourselves? Are we dictated by the bank and boss and kids and partners etc? Part of me is screaming to be freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee and is acting rebellious until I get it! If my boss knew I went for walks when I worked from home - oh my gosh I don't think I could even think about it! And I just want to go into shops and buy something because I can and not worrying that I won't be able to pay for childcare or a bill.
Queen was right, I want to break free!