Inner rhythm- Are you there???
We had the task of listening to our body clock thus hearing more. This was my toughest one yet…...
I had the task of listening to my own body clock.
It was the hardest task I have tried to date. There are a variety of reasons for this. It is worth mentioning again that I am a mother of three kids. I found the most difficult aspect of this task was my children. It is impossible, during term time to completely listen to your own body clock. I believe life s only manageable having set routines and times of completing activities. My kids do a number of extra- curricular activities, meetings, friend/ family meet-ups. I began the week with the best of intentions. We would do only what was necessary when we wanted. My husband and I have had an on-going debate about the number of clubs/ activities the children do. Is it necessary to do so many? Are they not too tired? Is the ongoing cost something we can continue to pay out for? Can we afford to have any more children if they are all carrying out every club under the sun????? Therefore he was very interested to see how my week would go.
Armed with the knowledge that he would scrutinise my every move in the hope it would lead to me rethinking the endless clubs; I began. It was Monday morning and I had taken my time to get ready for the day, doing so when I felt it was necessary. By lunchtime I was out of the house. Did I really listen to my own rhythms or did I know deep down inside I had to collect kids in the afternoon, get dinner ready, get said kids ready for bed; all with new baby strapped to me!!!
Chris Barez Brown stated that by doing this experiment we may be able to create the right environment to be able to really listen. I actually found that not sticking to my routines made it even more impossible to listen. Now I must inform you that I am not the most organised of people at home. I always feel like I am always one or two steps behind where I need to be. Doing this experiment only increased that feeling! Being on maternity leave I have tried to fill my days with some mother and baby classes to keep us busy, engage baby and meet other parents/ carers with baby’s of a similar age. One day I did not go to a baby massage class because I did not feel I wanted to. This was a revelation to me as I sat at home and bathed in the light of being with baby in our own environment because we wanted to. But the next day was Mother and Baby Aerobics. I didn’t want to miss this one. I have been inactive long enough to know this does not work for me. Doing exercise and getting those endorphins going are exactly what I need to feel good about myself. I knew that if I didn’t go that week it would have a negative impact on how I was feeling that week and probably filter through to everyone else in this house. So I got up really early (I used my alarm), got us both ready in record time and flew out the door.
I have realised even more so than before that I need routine, I crave routine. Having children demands it. Having a baby insists on it. It is impossible to get out of the house with three children without micro- managing every minute and I am still always late!!! I would go so far as to say that routine helps my state of mind. I feel in control, I feel organised and I know what to expect. Obviously there are things that will throw you off of your routine but on the whole it works for me and my family.
I am not so sure you can be employed in this work-driven society that we live in and do things when you want. Perhaps it is more about thinking about how we spend our weekends/ free time. Do we have to continue to be so rigorous with how we spend our time? Do we have to fill our lives with activities all of the time? Whilst I deem it very important that my children having exposure to different clubs/ people/ experiences, we both agree they do more than enough. They don’t have to do everything, all of the time.
I realised this week that perhaps I have no idea what my own body clock might be! I think I have completely lost any sign of my own inner rhythm. It is fair to say that for the last 5 months, my body clock is dictated to by new baby and that is absolutely fine. When they kid’s are all grown up I might try this one again when routines are based on what I need at that time.
Must dash, I’ve got a to-do list as long as my arm and a few hours left to do it in!!