TUNE OUT TO TUNE IN...
Its that simple!
Last weeks task was to tune into yourself...Eat when hungry, sleep when tired, get up when ready and do what, when and how you please. Of course this is not the true definition of tuning in and yet I found myself unapologetically indulging in my own twisted glory. I enjoyed the boldness of sleeping in, even if it did mean I was catching my tail for the rest of the day. I embraced the mid evening snooze I took on the sofa just because I could. I ordered chips with my sandwich knowing that my body craved salt and the feeling of fullness but best of all during this challenge I felt more calm, free, patient and unusually assertive.
Trust your gut! Do what makes your heart sing! Live for the moment! - Colloquialisms that are so commonly and flippantly thrown around they make my face scrunch up in irritation. So obvious are the statements you would think they would be easy to follow when in fact they are not! Your gut, your heart, that moment - perhaps by concreting the noun and making it intangible it simultaneously becomes more difficult to trust, just like its hard to believe in something you cannot see. Whatever the reason it is just so easy to overthink and our natural instincts are left dormant. Tuning into televisions, earphones or computers however have become almost second nature and in doing so ironically helps us to zone out from ourselves, allowing us a realm to escape, to hide from reality. I often find myself searching for what can only be referred to as ‘dead tv’ programs. Seeking them out is my conscious attempt to free myself from an often overthinking, analytic mind.
This experiment forced me to break the chain and came with a little inner voice reminding me that tuning in could not purely be done by eating what I want and sleeping when I was feeling a tad tired. This voice told me to slow down, advised me when to reconsider and simply to use my initiative. It popped up at unexpected times asking me why I was feeling annoyed, lethargic or flustered, if it was really necessary and by becoming conscious to it gave me the option to improve the situation.
On the first night partaking in this task I found myself fighting feelings of tiredness. At first refusing to accept that I should go to bed because it was earlier than usual I finally gave in conscious to the demands of the experiment. The next day I stopped rushing to an appointment realising that I was not actually getting there any quicker by falling over myself. I slowed down and in doing so took more of the journey into consideration. I breathed in the air consciously and noticed buildings that I had never seen before.
Tuning in is actually about tuning out of all the noise and distractions so that we can live a more authentic life, where we are happy to just be. This task was hugely beneficial for me and I welcome the little voice who questions my unreasoning behaviours to stay.