A bit of background info....
It has taken some courage to type this- not because of a fear of the Wake Up! experience, but mostly because 'blogging' is something very unfamiliar to me! Actually navigating this website has left me nervous- what if I press the wrong key? Is there a secret blogging etiquette? etc...! So I now feel quite empowered as I sit typing this. I am Jacqui, a 46 year old woman. At this point I have resisted the temptation to write '46 year old wife, mother of three, teacher and carer for my 88 year old mother', because the aim of this is to find myself a little bit more. I think I have fallen into the trap- as many of us do!- of valuing my life through the care I give others, and actually I would now like to continue being there for others whilst also reclaiming the energy for shaping my own life a little bit more.
So why this Great Wake Up! challenge? I am looking for a renewed sense of excitement and connection to life. Anyone who spends a lot of their life caring may recognise that their life becomes run by routines: routines that lead to a smoother, more orgainised life - cleaning, ironing, taxi-ing, feeding, marking...but, goodness, this can become dull! I think I have begun to measure myself against this sense of organisation, so much so that I have forgotten how to be a bit more spontaneous. So I am hoping that this challenge will just shake things up a bit, but in a way that means I can still be there for the people who do rely on me.
Embarking on the first challenge this week. Looking forward to it. It will be interesting to see who I want to share these feelings with, and also to challenge myself to share them with those where it might be more awkward!