Hi there! Welcome to my world.
A bit about me and why I'm here
Hi I'm Karon, oh no, not a good start, makes me sound as if I'm at a party and about to get into all that awkward stuff of 'What do you do for a living? Husband? Separated. Oh dear. Children? Yes, one. Lovely. Left the nest yet?' and on and on. By the time you've got past all that you could well lose the will to live and are definately in need of a stiff drink.
Oh well, this is the only way I can think of to kick things off so you might as well grab that drink (be it tea, coffee or something stronger) and I'll whitter on about myself for a bit so at least you'll have a rough idea who is writing this stuff.
I'm here just as a person, not an expert on anything other than getting by in general, in fact I don't even know what I'm going to blog about here.
Much to my surprise I have managed to make it to the grand old age of 58. I say surprise because I have battled with depression and anxiety on and off since my teens and there have indeed been moments when I made every effort not to go any further, hang on any longer, see another day. But here I am, at this party we call life and I'm doing okay thanks, in fact that's really why I'm here - you see if I can make it through so can you, no matter how crap things are for you right now.
I've been through the proverbial mill, taken almost every anti-depressant known to man, tried more therapies/healthy eating/excersise/self help et al than you can throw a stick at and know only too well what it is like to be overwhelmed, defeated and unworthy.
Some things have worked for me and some haven't. In my posts I'd like to share some of that with you, some blasts from the past and postings from the present. In these last few years (especially last year) I have learned a lot and the most important lesson of all was to let go.
I'm finally letting go of the past, loosening my vice like grip on perfectionism, letting go of striving so damn hard that I lost sight completely of the present and lived for bloody years in some future perfection that never happened and the hardest one of all, letting go of my beloved Teenager who will turn twenty this year and go off to university.
So this is what my blogging is about really, it's about Letting Go.