In week 42 of the Great Wake-Up our challenge was to think about what we love (and don't love) about ourselves.
This challenge did not go the way I expected! I was pretty confident I could come up with a respectable list of things I liked about myself, but I also expected to go to town with the list of things I found hard to like about me. It didn't go like that, though...
I found it easy to think about what I like about myself - probably the result of over a year of challenging and pushing myself to find/create my joy. Some things on the list were brought home by Wake-Up, some by self-employment, and some by the gift I've had these last two years of seeing myself through so many sets of fresh eyes. This has been a journey to (almost) comfort in my own skin (more on that later!).
When faced with the other list, I really struggled to add items. I listed my self-doubt, but then scratched it off because that is actually what drives me to do better and I wouldn't be without it. I considered my objective view of the world, but then put that on my "love" list because I do love it - it's just some other people who don't. In fact, most of the the things that came to mind for the "hard to like list" are things other people may not like, but I couldn't write them down, because they're me, and I love them. I'm starting to wonder if I've seen myself from enough other perspectives to realise that the only one that matters is mine, and I like (almost) everything about me.
The least said about the extra stone or so being over forty has gifted me with, the better... I'm working on that, it's just a question of whether I love my epicureanism or my sense of aesthetics more!