Week 42: What I love about me.

That's me in the spotlight...

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Oct 10, 2016
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Interesting one this. Chris set us the challenge to create two lists: what I love about me and what I don’t love so much about me.

I felt a bit uneasy about this because I thought it may turn into some intense self- analysis that to be frank, I don’t really have the energy for. Yet it actually turned into a moment of recognition, a sense of ‘you are great, not perfect but hey-ho- absolutely good enough.’

I have completed this task at the end of a long day at work. I am physically and emotional weary, but not exhausted. There have been no major incidents or concerns to preoccupy me and perhaps this is a productive mood for this kind of experiment. I sat down with my journal, drew a line down the page and collected my thoughts. No drama or angst or filter as I wasn’t reacting to any emotion other than completing this task.

The lists were revealing in as much that I completed them, then sat back, smiled (as suggested by Chris!) and then felt the inspiration to write some more. Both sides pretty equal in length, there I am. I used to be competitive and always needed to be seen as good, reliable and knowledgeable but now I enjoy the fact that I don’t need to be. I will try to reach high standards at work and be a good friend, but at the end of the day I have learnt that I can only do my best in the situation, frame of mind and energy levels that I have. There have been times when I have self-criticised for hours and hours only to realise that a couple of days after the incident I and the world have moved on! I have learnt the power of ‘sorry’ and am learning to apply it to myself.

I think this is a releasing experiment- it releases you from the utter fallacy that perfection is attainable or even aspirational. The fact that my lists are even in length makes a well-balanced person doesn’t it? Anything I would change though? Yes: I would like to be a bit more flamboyant! I have a deep appreciation of all that is artistic and perhaps I need to let that flow into my personality a bit more... so I may set aside a bit of time to reintroduce a bit of colour into my life, even if it is just a new red nail varnish!

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Jacqui

Mother, wife, daughter, teacher...

Firmly stuck in the 'sandwich generation' category, I am 46 years old and looking to shake things up a bit! I am a teacher, which I love - but it takes over your life! A mother of three - two daughters, 16 and 15, a son aged 11. Wife to Simon for 19 years. Carer for rather eccentric mum, aged 89.

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Ffi Ffi Trixibelle about 2 years ago

Lovely post Jacqui .. really inspired me to give it a go :) .. so pleased for you and your well balanced conclusion x

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Chris Baréz-Brown about 2 years ago

Great Jacqui that sounds like a winner. A splash of colour sounds like a great plan! C x

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Vanessa about 2 years ago

Lovely reflection, Jacqui! I'm curious about your wish to be more flamboyant; I wonder how you feel you life would be different if you were, and what's stopping you from being "flamboyant"... No better colour than red for action and passion, though, so I'll look forward to seeing those fingernails!