In this week's experiment we were asked to 'right a wrong'. Not in real life, but to go back in our mind to the person we were at the time and make it better somehow.
I struggled with this for a number of reasons. I found it difficult to think of an appropriate time when I had done something that I wasn't proud of. Not because there aren't any, or because I'm perfect. Far from it. There are lots of things I've done that I wished I hadn't.
However there was no specific event that I carry with me to this day.
It's more that general feelings stay with me, rather than the details of what happened. I believe that each of these events has shaped me in some way and made me into the person I am today. For example, I have found that the difficulties I have faced in the past (and that I still continue to face) have made me into a more compassionate person today. I'm able to empathise better with other people.
I've now reached a point in my life where I try and see what I can learn from my experiences, whether good or bad.
I may get things wrong but I try to remember that I'd never intentionally set out to do that. Or I may have had a really good reason for doing what I did. If I can keep that in mind and try to understand what that event has taught me then that really helps.
I've not always been like that. It's taken me a long time to reach this point. And I'm not always successful in it even now. As an example, I'm a BIG worrier! I tend to move from one worry to the next pretty quickly. But I very rarely hold the same worry in my mind for long periods. It just changes.
I suppose all of this gives some explanation as to why I found this week's experiment difficult. I try and deal with the things at the time they happen. Or I move on to the next thing.
But I can imagine that if there was a particular event that stood out in my mind then this would be a really useful exercise to try.
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Totally makes sense Preeti, and good to get to that conclusion. Big loving, Chris xx