Right a wrong

Week 39 in 'wake up

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Sep 18, 2016
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After a series of easy challenges this one was a tough one. I would like to believe that I am an honest person. When I’ve wronged a person I am aware of it and beat out the negative energy that surrounds that moment. I try to resolve the wrong. I would happily do a polygraph test to prove this. I wear all my scars of the past through the lines on my face. But broken dreams, broken relationships and times I’ve fucked up big time have no place in my heart anymore. I know where I’ve done wrong and if I was to pass by the ones I’ve wronged I would apologise from the bottom of my heart but I don’t want to rake up the past. The past is the past and I don’t believe I have a particular wrong to correct. If that seems selfish or big headed then so be it because I know the truth.

Week thirty nine’s challenge to imagine righting a wrong made me look back on the past and realise some things are better left undisturbed than bringing them to the surface to mar the present or the future. I thought deep and hard about this challenge but my decision was final; the past is the past and I’m only moving forward now. If someone comes calling requesting answers about that past I will open my feelings and heart to them but I won’t search for them in my mind or in reality to prise open the past to examine the rights and wrongs of the choices I made. I regret several things in my life but without making those mistakes I wouldn’t be on the path I’m travelling on now, a path that has led to a great wake up in me. I want to be free from bonds and not shackled to regret and past mistakes. I move on and forward and don’t worry about the past. In my mind it’s already gone and should and will stay gone.

I’m not perfect and I can live with that. As for the fisty-cuffs in my life I am truly sorry. For my part in broken hearts or dreams I am even more regretful. I think we need to learn from the past but not dwell on it in any shape or form. This ‘wake up’ journey has made me give up any dense energy I was carrying and I see no point in revisiting it again. This was a tough challenge for me and took me a lot of time to come to the decision I did and I hope it can be respected by anyone reading this.

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Jacqui about 2 years ago

I completely respect your decision and understand it. For years I did dwell on past events but like you I have now made peace with it. I actually don't have the energy to dwell on it anymore. I have had a similar reaction to this experiment!

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Mark Cuddy about 2 years ago

Cheers Jacqui, I appreciate your words.

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Ffi Ffi Trixibelle about 2 years ago

omg...this is so weird but this is my exact same position on this experiment Mark - it's like you read my mind. I too am only moving forward.

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Mark Cuddy about 2 years ago

Cheers Fi, it's nice to know other people are moving forward and not looking back too. Maybe for some of us these challenges/experiments have taken us to a new place in our lives, one we enjoy and a place the shit from the past holds no sway in our thinking. We are just moving forward with more certainty. Thank you for kind comments.

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Chris Baréz-Brown about 2 years ago

Big respect. It's all about the journey and you did that with bells on. C x

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Mark Cuddy about 2 years ago

Cheers Chris - it has been amazing - thank you!

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Amanda Smith 11 months ago

Wow!