Please don't make me "play"...

Oh, dear, my first late blog post - a bit of an indication of how I found the Week 32 task to make a paper aeroplane and find somewhere interesting to fly it...

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Aug 08, 2016
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OK, this one has been so hard for me. Ridiculous, right, but I really, really did not want to go fly a paper aeroplane...

I tried. I asked my husband to do the challenge with me, thinking we could make some time together to research techniques and have a go. Unfortunately, life conspired against us and we've still not found free daylight time for this.

I read other blogs and felt my heart lift with excitement at the thought of my fellow bloggers releasing their burdens to fly off across the countryside. I imagined feeling that same release so I picked out gorgeous pink paper to make my aeroplane - and all I could think of was god I hope this doesn't go any distance because I'll have to find it again so I don't leave litter.

Today I gave up, made the bloody plane and tried to launch it from an upstairs window (I live in the Fens, I'm lucky my house is above sea level). I don't know if it was me or the wind but it nose-dived onto the patio and laid there as flat as I felt.

I only felt this way once before about an experiment - climbing a tree. This is the same feeling of heavy reluctance I felt then and it's crystallised one thing for me - I don't like to "play". Never have, not even as a child. Although so many things may seem like play in my world - technical drawing, researching big data analytics, cooking a holiday meal (all carefully flow-charted for optimum timing), even curling up with a good book - I just don't connect with silly games.

Recognising that I'm an odd-bod (anyone who knows me would tell you that...), I'm really happy this worked for other people. But what I'm going to allow to fly away is putting pressure on myself to do something just because everyone else thinks it's fun.

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Vanessa

cat lover, wife, designer, analyst (the spreadsheet kind...), friend, sister, daughter, writer, consultant, lover of beauty...

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Jacqui about 2 years ago

Absolutely! I love your honesty. Some experiments suit and some don't and to be able to reflect on these as they really are for us is what makes it interesting for others to read. Also you sound quite 'ballsy' in this blog- which is fab!

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Mark Cuddy about 2 years ago

Ha, ha, ha - I'm laughing with you not at you. One day I will invite you and your husband to Malvern and we will walk on the hills and dispatch a pink paper plane and then we will climb a tree and you will feel free! You shouldn't be so hard on yourself because not all the experiments/challenges will work and in a way it did work because for a time it took you out of your comfort zone and off autopilot. I'm just glad you're here with the rest of us on this journey because I know from your blogs and the support you give other bloggers that you a great person full of fun. When I think of you Vanessa I think "Yeah-yeah".

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Vanessa about 2 years ago

Oh, thanks so much, both! Your words mean a lot to me and, Mark, your offer - or "threat" ;-) - made me smile lots! Yeah yeah!