Having a bad day is normal. Feeling so sad and angry at the world that you can't face getting out of bed in the morning, maybe not so much? Having the life you've always dreamed of and feeling utterly miserable for no reason, well that's just crazy right?
You don't have to have lost your job, a loved one or be in the depths of bankruptcy to feel rock bottom; in fact in those times, you sort of expect to feel less than ok. It's the depression that sets in for no reason that's the hardest to deal with.
Feeling low is crippling enough without the guilt and shame that you have no right to feel that way, there's always someone worse off than you afterall! You tell yourself to 'put on a brave face' using all the strength you have to not be a Debby Downer but it's utterly exhausting.
The truth is depression is hard and there's no quick fix, you don't just snap out of it and it's not that easy to ask for help. PMA (Positive Mental Attitude) doesn't quite cut it and you often don't have the energy for the things that are prescribed to help; exercise, meditation, seeing friends. Everything is just a bit too much.
I wanted to write this post for anyone who might have found themselves in the same boat and wasn't quite sure how to drag themselves out of it. Winter is particularly hard and I've certainly noticed my mood fluctuating, affecting several areas I'm normally so happy in: work, relationships, my energy levels. For me, it helps to notice the feelings when they come up and express them with a trusted friend. I also have to look at how much sleep I'm getting and do my best to fit in some exercise or curling up with a book and switching off from the world for an hour or two.
Low mood, Depression or S.A.D are nothing to be ashamed of, they can just make life a bit more of a challenge. We need to recognise that we're not broken and that it's ok not to be the perfect friend, colleague or partner while we're experiencing these feelings and that it's all just temporary.
It's so important to be kind to yourself in these times, to seek help or just take a bit of time out for yourself - whatever works best for you, people will undertand.
You're not alone, we'll get through this.