Week 48: Using Wake Up to help you though the dark times...
The experiments that provide a deeper support and connection
On Saturday I received the dreaded call back letter from a mammogram screening. Unable to ring the hospital for further information I had a weekend of attempting to put things into perspective and stay calm.
It is easy to stay connected and philosophical when life seems to be ticking along nicely, but when a potentially life changing moment arrives that could shake you to your core a smiley face on your hand may not be enough.
I did cope though and with more courage and calmness than I would have done a year ago. Three experiments came out of my emotional tool box and really helped:
- 10 minutes outside to breathe and smile
- Journaling and freewriting
I knew at the time that these experiments resonated with me and through them I found the peace to get through the past hellish days. My husband was quietly amazing as always and I allowed myself to focus on the trust in myself and those around me.
Yesterday I was in hospital and burst into tears as I walked through the doors. At that point I had to give in to my panic. I am pretty certain I will be ok: I have had a biopsy and await results, but whatever occurs it is all very early, very manageable and probably very positive.
But blimey! This has really woken me up! The things that can seem boring, mundane, repetitive are bloody amazing and want them to continue. I LOVE my life, my family, my home, my new and old friends! I also LOVE me and have LOVED being part of the Wake Up family!
So Wake Uppers! Perhaps this has been the universe’s way of testing just how much I have woken up to life so when the inevitable bumps in the road occur I am able to dig deep and trust in myself that we will cope. After my results I may be able to put the smiley face on my hand, but for now it is not enough. What did make me laugh was the day after the experiment was posted I found 4 smiley face stickers on 4 of my desks at school. Instead of tutting about who put them there I thought what a great idea – a smiley face in unexpected places to remind us that life is fantastic!